1. |
light intro
02:06
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you are on my mind
but only for half the time
that you should be
because we've gotta sleep
for we are only human beings
the breathe and fuck and love
and dream of being loved
you are in the light
but only such that I
can only see you
one part at a time
and I'm afraid that I can't see all
or even half of you
before this light
goes out
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2. |
shining eyes
03:03
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your eyes
are opening and closing
like the light that I can just
barely see within
and I wish that I
could make them smile and shine
like they did when you were
just a little kid
even though
it was just a few short months ago
that you helped lay to rest
that part that we cast out in the snow
my midwife
and I'll cry for you
like the ravens do
for the ones that they've known
for their whole lives
and I hope that
I'll know you for my whole life
your body
is across this country
though I know I'll be
seeing you soon again
you'll be wearing that green dress
and those beautiful blue eyes
and that weight
that you'll still carry deep within
your chest
even though
it was just a few short months ago
that you helped me erase
that old part
that I'd hated for so long
my midwife
and lover amongst the reeds
and I'll sing to you
like some parents do
and I'll help you
find and hold and love
your new self
like you did mine
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3. |
many flowers
03:00
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smiling is only
for the weak hearted people
who don't know
that there's anything
in this world that's sacred
that anything means anything
beyond the blood and bones
wedding rings
hidden happy things
below the stairs
as we stared for hours
and everything became everything again
so you don't smile
at the people
who come by your house
each hour to check
that you're okay
so you don't smile
so you won't
lose this feeling
too deep the wound
to be healed just by moonlight
and everything
went dead and dry
no signs of life
where you reside
in your tinder box
like a firefly
some faraway children
have caught
they forgot about it
and it died
so you don't smile
at the people
who drop by like
once a week
with kids and act so happy
so you don't smile
so you won't
lose this feeling
but you won't tell them that
in the morning over tea
when you were born
everything was a dream
before it went numb
it was everything
you thought it should be
til that sunday morning
you missed the warning signs
now your house is overrun
with weeds
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4. |
color song
02:20
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come the morning time
before the light has come
a car rolls by our window
I'm no longer numb
i feel everything
I think I wanna cry
I think I wanna die right here
but I don't wanna die
at all
and you
give the color
to all things
I think my cheeks were red
and I think loves that pale blue
of your eyes
that first night when you cried
in my arms on the floor of this room
and I wish I were you
or that I could be a little more like that
wanna live with you
wanna get a cat
it's morning again
and there's no light yet
think I wanna die right here
but don't wanna die
I've got so much left
and you
give the color
to all things
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5. |
untitled-->
02:33
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you don't even know
what to do
with the sun coming on
so don't cry over
what you thought was yours
and don't tell me
you've been here before
you were hanging
on the moon
til tomorrow
with the sun shining through
your window
onto your empty bed
you smiled at me
looked right back and said
don't you ever lie
don't you ever lie
to yourself ever again
the moon
he forgot his place
as he stole the dream
from right in front of my face
and he won't
no he won't ever surmise
that I may know
more than his disguise
don't you ever lie
don't you ever lie
to yourself ever again
you can't know
what you'd do
if you were in that place
or what you'd say
if you could be
everything you'd wanted to
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6. |
4
00:44
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7. |
one flower
03:12
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you and I we're sitting
at the top of the hill
and I found hope
as I looked
up through the cracks
in the roof where we can see
I focused on your hand
sprinkling blades of grass on me
and I saw the way to freedom
some other place
show you some other face
let's get out to
some other place
show you some other face
you and I were dancing
with the wind and the leaves
and I found help
help in
forgetting everything
that I didn't want to know
i loved everything about you
but I couldn't let it show
on my face
and this all can be erased
some other place
show you some other face
let's get out to
some other place
show you some other face
and he
is nothing to this earth
but he
will forever be preserved
in the blood and bones of you
and I will love you
here on earth
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8. |
mother
03:12
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words don't hold you
the way you think they should
you just barely remember
a time when you though
that they could
with your mother standing there
at the top of the stairs
in her blue and white
floral print dress
as you hung on her
every word
trees they don't love me
with each hollow in hand
you were just a child with balloons
when you first put mankind before man
with your brother in the field
at the top of the hill
in that red shirt you now wear
but you don't know where it came from
you don't love me
the way you think you should
you can't even remember
a time when you thought that you could
with your mother standing there
she looked down
and told you
she loved you
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9. |
an introduction
02:08
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you are nothing
but a breeze touching the leaf
of the tree that loves me
but not enough I guess
for me to say fuck it
I'm going home
I don't know
where I'll be in six months
if I'm even lucky enough to be alive
cause some of us aren't
and I thank god each day
that that's not yet too many of you
what'd I do to deserve this
did I do enough for you
and can I see you again
in heavens I don't believe in
we are nothing but love
and I hope that's enough
for you to be happy
or at least kinda okay
what'd I do to deserve this
you are nothing but a tree
in the breeze to my east
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10. |
a farewell // dream
02:49
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I don't understand
what the things we say really mean
if we don't believe in them
like I believe in you
but I do
I don't know
what I could ever be
if you were gone
I envision the pain peeling off
of our apartment walls
now I'm taking down the pictures
in your bedroom
and I can't stop
this is my dream
and I live it every night
even if i don't remember
I couldn't understand
what you told me on tuesday night
but if I did
I'd probably scream and cry
but that's alright
I think your cheeks are cold
and I think fear's
that broken glass in your eyes
so unlike that first night
when you cried
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Ben McCormick Barrington, Rhode Island
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